This heart portrait was a break through for me!  And I'd like to share it with you.  There are two parts.

As I was coloring this heart, one I didn't like that it was not shaped the right way - Not liking it when things in general aren't "perfect".  Now I see this metaphor.  Also coloring my heart this green, the color of my heart (check out a map of the chakras) I noticed all this emotion, it was confusing, intense and a little overwhelming, and there was some sadness.  It was as if I was feeling all of the emotions at once.  Maybe that is what is going on?  Then as I colored over the pink and purple it became black.  Just like the "Splinter."  So its not actually pain, maybe its just a little bit of energy from a different area inside my heart?  Pink is my throat and purple is my head.  Yep, so they are in my heart because this is how I have coped for so long.  Thinking my way to love and saying what I should.  And all of the emotions that I'm feeling are overwhelming and bring me to tears often.  WOW, what a big breakthrough!  Its ok to feel all of these different emotions all at once.  My heart kind of turned irridescent and shined while writing this <3  Like I just found its true power.  

So I don't need to say what I should anymore.  And I don't need to think my way to love anymore.  Feeling everything is going to be uncomfortable for a little while.  But this is where you will live your true power.  I'm feeling so grateful to see this.  I feel like the blind man in Amelie when she grabs him, helps him across the street, and describes everything in such detail that the man feels like he can see.

​https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDobYBPEquo

I'll paste the video below.  Its one of my favorite scenes in any movie of all times.  Its makes my heart smile and tears come to my eyes every time, as I can't stop smiling.

Here is only the heart.​