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This heart portrait was a break through for me! And I'd like to share it with you. There are two parts.
As I was coloring this heart, one I didn't like that it was not shaped the right way - Not liking it when things in general aren't "perfect". Now I see this metaphor. Also coloring my heart this green, the color of my heart (check out a map of the chakras) I noticed all this emotion, it was confusing, intense and a little overwhelming, and there was some sadness. It was as if I was feeling all of the emotions at once. Maybe that is what is going on? Then as I colored over the pink and purple it became black. Just like the "Splinter." So its not actually pain, maybe its just a little bit of energy from a different area inside my heart? Pink is my throat and purple is my head. Yep, so they are in my heart because this is how I have coped for so long. Thinking my way to love and saying what I should. And all of the emotions that I'm feeling are overwhelming and bring me to tears often. WOW, what a big breakthrough! Its ok to feel all of these different emotions all at once. My heart kind of turned irridescent and shined while writing this <3 Like I just found its true power.
So I don't need to say what I should anymore. And I don't need to think my way to love anymore. Feeling everything is going to be uncomfortable for a little while. But this is where you will live your true power. I'm feeling so grateful to see this. I feel like the blind man in Amelie when she grabs him, helps him across the street, and describes everything in such detail that the man feels like he can see.
I'll paste the video below. Its one of my favorite scenes in any movie of all times. Its makes my heart smile and tears come to my eyes every time, as I can't stop smiling.
Here is only the heart.
Now, on the continuation of my drawing, I drew all the glowing, radiating, mingling energy that feels iridescent. Now I understand. And all these times that I feel sad or cry not totally clear of the reason, now I know its just so much emotion, its not lingering underlying depression. Though many of the emotions are sad, now I know that I experience many emotions at the same time, and it will take time for me to be comfortable with this. So I say good bye to you as I feel glowing just like the blind man in Amelie.
Sending love to all those affected, which is almost everyone in Northern California and a few counties in southern California.
Almost everyone in Northern California has a friend or family member that is in danger of these fires going on right now, if you are one of the lucky ones that has not been directly impacted. My heart goes out to you. First here are a few resources:
If you do have internet that you have most likely found somewhere that can help. And "help" is exactly what inspired me to write this article. There are so many people that are willing to and want to help. Yet to my friends that I have reached out to, my help has been denied. Now more than ever help is needed yet, many of us feel uncomfortable accepting help. We have become so independent and used to doing everything on our own, that it may be hard to accept or even ask for help.
While right now is a very big tragedy, there are many people that are coming together to support each other. This is the beautiful part. People are reaching out to check on each other whom have not talked in many years. And help is being offered in so many different ways. If you do need help, please ask, there are many people that want to help. Facebook has been an incredible resource.
So to my close friend: "I want to help however I can. I know how uncomfortable it makes you feel to even be in a position of needing help, but it hurts me to have my help be rejected. This is a horrible time, I really hope that you will not need to evacuate. I hope that it rains tonight. I love you, and if the way that I am offering help does not work, please tell me what does work. Please tell me what would be helpful. I will give you food, I will give you money, I offered to share my apartment. I want to help you, so please tell me what will help since my ideas were not good ones to you."
I know that this personal scenario is not uncommon, so please know there are people that love you, and even if they don't know you, there are many people that want to help. Reach out, those that can will be grateful to help, and that they are in a position to be able to help.
Until things have settled hope this yoga video brings a little peace, even if it only lasts 20 minutes.
Prayers and Love, Jessica
You know when you are feeling super stressed? Maybe because you have way too much going on at once, or because you bit off more than you can chew.
The physical symptoms of stress are your body pushing against expansion. Just like growing pains, don't know if you had those as a kid, I did, it really hurt. Some people are aware when they are in the midst of expansion, and some people are not. It feels like stress. I'd like to be vulnerable right now, and share with you that right now; I am doing a job that is stretching me, and its super uncomfortable!
Each time I come to work on this job I just noticed that I huff and puff and feel so stressed out. Yesterday I got a headache instantly because of how much doubt flooded my body. I noticed that I was feeling resentful towards my client who is "putting all this stuff on me." Now, putting all of it together I realize she's not, I realize I created this job for myself. Its something that I want to do more often in my future, yet I'm so resistant! Conversely when I do a good job, I feel elated, so lucky, so proud, and like "YES! I can do ANYTHING!"
We are all going through this in some way. While I'm not totally clear on the solution, maybe its just to acknowledge you're in the middle of expanding, it is uncomfortable, and that is ok. Its uncomfortable to go beyond and into something that you don't know. But that is how we grow. Because I just realized what was going on with me, I wanted to share it with you.
Just like everybody else you are either in the middle of expansion, or have been there before. You are not alone, although it sure does feel like it. And yes, there is also the fear of failure, but now realizing what is going on no matter what happens I have already grown, and can handle more than I was able to before taking on this job. I'm proud of myself, and I'm proud of you. So next time you are feeling stressed out, pause, take a breath, or five, and acknowledge that you are moving beyond what you knew, go you!
Today whatever you have going on, try to push your own limits in some way, any way. You will expand in more ways than you realize just from doing that one tiny thing today.
I am happy to report that I successfully stuck to only eating smoothies for the entire month of September.... Well around the middle of the month I had a few salads too :) But I loved it!
Here is what I learned about myself:
1. I just need to eat more fat.
2. When I have a craving its because I haven't eaten enough salt lately.
3. I'm not actually a bottomless pit, I was just not eating the right foods for me, and following these smoothie recipes bring nutrients into my life that I don't normally consume. After all why would you randomly crave goji berries when they are $8 a bag? Or eat a spoon of coconut oil? BUT now I know otherwise! I do have a very on the go lifestyle, and making a smoothie for me to drink as I drive was an amazing solution to getting the nutrients I needed without slowing down my pace. If anything it sped things up for me because I was properly fueled.
Now we are in a new month, so new goal! But smoothies are now integrated into my daily life. And not just a yummy smoothie with lots of fruit. I'll continue to follow the recipes, and load on the fattening ingredients! (and ps, I like my body better, both how I look and how I feel)
What is something that you could try out for the entire month? I encourage you to experiment. Can you commit to drawing everyday, drinking a specific amount of water everyday or complimenting someone everyday? Having fresh flowers in your entry way? Doing 100 sit-ups or push-ups? Doing something challenging/or scary everyday? Like going for a promotion, starting your own business, skydiving, telling the truth, rather than keeping peace at your expense?
For me... I've started going to an improve class, last night was the first session, and I have a 64 oz. juice container that I have filled with water, and will finish it everyday. I'd love to hear with shift you will commit to for the month of October!
I'm very passionate about a lot of things, often trying to incorporate all of it into my life!