Memory Re-d0

Merry Christmas everyone.  I wish each person a happy holiday season, and I hope each person gets what they truly want.  It doesn't have to be a gift that someone bought you, and wrapped up to put under your tree :)  I wrote quite a long list this year, writing lists is something I really like doing... And on there, I included that I want a boyfriend, that will turn into my husband eventually; my dog, which is a Berniese Mountain Dog, but I would be really happy with a pug too, similar to the one I drew above.  I really want to inspire creativity, and to teach children they have power in creating their own reality, specifically throgh their room, lipstick, $10,000, some workout stuff...  The things I truly want cannot be purchased and wrapped up to sit under the tree.  So I hope that everyone gets what they truly want including me!

But today's article is just to share my re-making of a memory.  Now that you know I just absolutly love Teal Swan, I followed her meditation process.  And what came up one night was how devastated I was to wake up in the morning seeing that my mom and dad put up the tree without me.  I was particularly mad at my mom, because I made it very clear I wanted her to wait for me.  And I don't remember much after that, I must have been brushed off or shamed for feeling so hurt.  This has been a constant theme, and thanks to Teal, its happening less and less :)  So in the re-do, I bought a tree for little Jessica and we put it in her room, and decorated it together.  She was happy and we built a fort, read books, and drank hot chocolate after we were done.  How happy little Jessica was, was so sweet.  And so today, I actually did that.  I  bought a lttle tree for myself, and put on music, and decorated the tree with myself.  Something that I promissed little Jessica druing meditation that I would do this year, since she asked.  I am teary eyed, but it feels good.  It feels like a lot of relief in my heart.  

Close your eyes right now, and ask your self, what is one thing you could do right now that would make you happy and your christmas good?  And then just do it - Regardless of whatever emotional state you are in at the moment happy, sad, or any of the hundreds of emotional variations we all have.  You might be surprised by your answer, but do it - if not for yourself, then for me.  Mine was to decorate a tree together with little me.

​HUGS

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