Thoughts, Tips, Ideas and Tricks to live your best life
I know each one of our paths is different. Its wonderful that we are all at different places experiencing different things. Today was a success for me. In a lot of ways. My outside physical world is a reflection of my internal successes today. And my Aunt and Uncle are a giant part of making it happen. I don't know that I will be able to convey how grateful, proud, and happy I am here, but I'm going to try!
Today I went to Ikea with my Aunt and Uncle. This Uncle is a very good man, and a role model for me. This Aunt is also a second mom. I am so blessed to have many second moms <3. I just moved into a new apartment, and am looking for space maximization! So they drove 40 minutes to meet me at Ikea, helped me buy the bed, and then came back to my home & built the bed. Which I didn't ask them to do... I hadn't thought this part out, I just figured I would figure it out... I'm SO GRATEFUL they built the bed for me, I helped when I could. Now I have my dream apartment, with this amazing luxuriously soft rug, and my perfect bed.
Surprisingly to me, I have picked what I used to deem very girly colors. I have light pink sheets, with a silverish rug. Its beautiful! I feel like a princess (heart so happy I'm crying). I've read several books lately, and have been doing a lot of internal work. Some of the stuff has been confronting what femininity means to me, and going into that. Until a month ago, I had no idea I really dis-identified with being feminine, and it was actually a bad thing in my eyes. Then I read the book "Pussy" by Regena Thomas-Hauer, and am connecting to my inner GPS, and I am really surprised by what is coming out. Like me picking super girly things, and identifying with feeling like a princess, and liking it. I am moving into my true heart space. Its a place I have always wanted to be. It feels like love all the time :) I'm getting teary eyed as I type this. Because I am so grateful to be here, and because I'm sad that I didn't understand what this was until now. I have all these wonderful things and I actually believe that I deserve it. This is such a giant accomplishment for me, and I need to celebrate with you. This bed is like a trophy of the emotional confronting marathon that I have been "running" for the past three years. And now I am experiencing they pay-off.
Whatever you have going on in your life, if you are doing and feeling great, awesome! Keep celebrating, keep it up! If you are having a hard time, please keep tuning into your heart, keep doing the things that make you feel happier or better, keep meditating, doing yoga, facing yourself, and keep doing affirmations. And yes, please celebrate all of your successes, no matter how tiny. Each time you celebrate your success, you open the door for more celebration within yourself, and those around you. I know that might be hard for some of you to understand, but its true, so just believe me until you start to see it for yourself.
I want this love for everyone. And its 100% possible.
I'm very passionate about a lot of things, often trying to incorporate all of it into my life!